Jaclyn Stowell

thank you my baby sis for all my angel hugs and kisses you sent me today for my birthday i caught them all,
love you too the moon and back my darling

luv
emma
xxx

Mags (Mummy) May 17, 2007

so sorry

Jaclyn, so sorry you were taken away from your mam and dad so soon, look after them and know that you are always loved. Susan (mam to Zac born still 2003)

Susan Higgins (another grieving mam) May 15, 2007

Sweet dreams sweet heart xxx

Edith (passer by) May 15, 2007

for my angel jaclyn

A million times I've needed you
A million times I've cried,
If love could have saved you
You never would have died.
Things we feel most deeply
Are the hardest things to say,
My dearest one, I loved you,
In a very special way.
If I could have one lifetime wish
One dream that could come true,
I'd pray to God with all my heart
For yesterday and you

lots of love
mummy
xxxxx

Mags (Mummy) May 11, 2007

my jaclyn

When god turns on the lights at night,
He looks down to make sure,
We've enough light 'til morning,
And if he thinks we need more,
He adds another star or two,
From his little store,
and when they need replacing,
He reaches down for more.
The stars are all our children,
He's taken from below,
He doesn't tell us which are ours,
We never ever know.
So if you find you have a chance,
No matter where you are,
Look up at the sky tonight
it's got a brand new star.

xxx

Mags (Mummy) May 11, 2007

Jaclyn lived a long and happy life,
All within the palace of my womb.
If she could not joy to be a wife,
There was love abundant in her doom.
Let those who mourn remember that she died
In sweet communion with the soul inside,
Nor more nor less serene within her tomb.

Mags (Mummy) April 30, 2007

to jaclyn i love you loads baby

How do you love a person
Who never got to be,
Or try again to see a face
You never got to see?
How do you mourn the death of one
Who never got to live,
When there's nothing to feel good about
And nothing to forgive?
I love you, little sister.
You're a person of the wind,
free to be the memory
Of all that might have been.
I love you, little sister,
My companion of the night,
Wandering through my lonely hours,
Beautiful and bright.
What does it mean to die before
You ever can be born,
To live the lovely night of life
And never see the dawn?
Ah! My little sister,
You lived like anyone!
Life's a burst of joy and pain,
And then, like yours, it's done.
I love you, little sister,
Just as if you'd lived for years.
No more, no less, I think of you,
The angel of my tears.

Mags (Mummy) April 30, 2007

hiya sweetheart

our little princess in the sky, we love you and miss you always not a day goes by that we dont think of you darling.
have lots of fun with your sister and brother and all your little angel friends in your heavenly garden.
look after your little nephew jason for he loves you too and your sisters and brother.

luv you loads

mummy & daddy
xxxxxxx

Mags (Mummy) April 28, 2007

jaclyn

my darlyn sweet little jaclyn, you were meant to be our new start but what a bitter sweet pill that turned out to be.
we decided after losing your sister and brother laura and jason that we would wait a year or so before trying again, when the time was right this was to be you jaclyn, i was over joyed as was your daddy at the news you were on your way, my pregnancy bloomed from day to day and although i had to attended weekly daycare clinics everything was going really well you were growing rapidly in my ever expanding belly.

i had reach 35 weeks jaclyn something that we had thought may not happen but it did.

i had gone for my twice daily daycare appointment and everything seemed to be in order with you heart beat fine gaining weight etc etc.....
but i felt restless jaclyn and that night i couldnt sleep, emma was staying with your gran and granda for the night, daddy i had sent off to bed while i sat up reading baby magazines and though it may seem strange to some they had been scattered all over the floor with a bottle of coke at one side of me and a couple of tudor pickled onion crips at the other (this was what i craved with you) i must have fallen asleep on the floor with my back against the couch.
i woke up at about 2am and went into our room to daddy telling him i could smell smoke, (this was what woke me) but it wasnt that i thought the house on fire it was infact cigerette smoke i could smell but neither daddy or i smoke, which was weird.
daddy said i had been dreaming and to get into bed, but i was still restless couldnt put my finger on it.
at 5am i woke up in pain, a searing pain through my tummy, daddy called the hospital and told them what was happening and the lady on the other end said my labour had started early and that an ambulance was on its way.
we arrived at the hospital around 6ish and i was having the usual checks etc but the nurse couldnt find your heart beat jaclyn so they sent for a portable scanner and as we thought and prayed not to be you had fallen asleep never to waken.
i went from the labour suite to a side room where i asked to call your gran and grandad to tell them our bad news, then i went to have a lie down.
i told your daddy i didnt feel right and that i was wet but i didnt think it was my waters jaclyn but that i thought i might be bleeding indeed i was.
daddy ran for the nurses and doctors who whisked me from the room to a side treatment room, so they could work on keep me alive, i was within half a pint of blood of loosing my life too jaclyn, infact, we've been told by the experts that i should be with you that i too should have bled to death as we had been informed you had.
what we had been told was that by the time they got me from the room i was in out into the corridor i should have been in a coma by the time they got me to the treatment room i should have been clinically dead but i had not at any time lost contiouness which they say is what saved my life.
by this time it was around 11am and they had finally stablised the bleeding and my blood was clotting again. you made your appearence early afternoon jaclyn. you had a little smile on your face as if to say that you were fine and that you werent in pain as i thought you must have been my darling.
i stayed with you a few days jaclyn as i had to find my sea legs again.
gran and granda had taken emma down to scarborough for a wee holiday and we had been meant to go with them, the staff at the hospital told us that we should join you as the arrangements for your funeral wouldnt be made until the following week and that this would be a good time to explain things to emma proper as she was older now,though we did allow her to see you as she had asked to do so, she gave you a wee kiss and cuddle and placed a little pink teddy in your cot.

your very much missed in our everyday life jaclyn and wish you could have been here with us, i have been told i had an abruption of the placenta and that i had a 1 in 4 chance of this happening as id suffered from pre-eclampsia twice before so who knows maybe had i known this then you might still be here today for the niggles id been getting all week long may well have been the tear in my womb that caused the abruption but we will never know.


love you always sweetheart now and forever till we meet again.

luv
mummy
xxx

Mags (Mummy) April 14, 2007

Thinking of you at this sad time, my heart goes out to you and your family. As a grieving mummy of baby angels I can understand your pain. Your in my thoughts and prayers xx

Mummy (a grieving mummy) April 12, 2007